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I am going to be completely honest with you and confess that when God gave me this idea to create this blog, I was against it. I have no problems with letting others know that I am saving myself for marriage but somehow creating this space was terrifying to me. There is a saying that you can’t run from what God has for you because it is for you. What God has planned will happen eventually. God planted this seed in me and I neglected it for a long time because of fear. God did not create us to have fear. Fear stops us from receiving blessings and can block so many opportunities. Having fear can also make us go through lessons that we could have avoided. Avoiding this idea that God had given me and being weak in the flesh made me go through a lesson that I could have avoided.

God always has whats best for us, even if we are running from it.

It all started with a boy, lol. I met a young man, who I found interesting and started spending time with him. After getting to know him, I began to like him. This was new for me because it had been a long time since I found someone that could hold my interest and was willing to be patient with me. As things started to get more serious, I let him know that I was saving myself for marriage. He thought that this was great and said that he understood. Kudos, points for him for being understanding and patient. As time progressed that understanding began to leave and our friendship started to tarnish. I liked him, so I ignored a lot of warning signs because again fear, was telling me that I did not want to be alone. He continued to do things that I did not like and I continued to ignore those things because oddly, I still enjoyed his company and conversation. At some point, I realized that talking and dealing with him was draining me and I had to let him go. I offered to still be his friend but this infuriated him and we ended things on very bad terms. 

Amen.

I share this story because it taught me several things. I should not give into temptation just because I am ready to be with someone. I also learned that if someone is not adding positivity to my life that they should be removed immediately. If I am in agony because I am honest with you and you can’t handle it, then we no longer need to be in contact. I am a good person and I am sure that you are too, so don’t let anyone compromise what you stand for. I almost fell headfirst into a bad situation and as the saying goes, “I can do bad all by myself.” Only positive vibes are welcome over here! Next, time I'll listen to God the first time but I never learned a lesson, I did not need. Clearly,lol.

God, I hear you loud and clear.

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Always remember you're worth the wait, even if others don't understand the jewels you possess.

 -Attendre