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I am going to be completely honest with you and confess that when God gave me this idea to create this blog, I was against it. I have no problems with letting others know that I am saving myself for marriage but somehow creating this space was terrifying to me. There is a saying that you can’t run from what God has for you because it is for you. What God has planned will happen eventually. God planted this seed in me and I neglected it for a long time because of fear. God did not create us to have fear. Fear stops us from receiving blessings and can block so many opportunities. Having fear can also make us go through lessons that we could have avoided. Avoiding this idea that God had given me and being weak in the flesh made me go through a lesson that I could have avoided.

God always has whats best for us, even if we are running from it.

It all started with a boy, lol. I met a young man, who I found interesting and started spending time with him. After getting to know him, I began to like him. This was new for me because it had been a long time since I found someone that could hold my interest and was willing to be patient with me. As things started to get more serious, I let him know that I was saving myself for marriage. He thought that this was great and said that he understood. Kudos, points for him for being understanding and patient. As time progressed that understanding began to leave and our friendship started to tarnish. I liked him, so I ignored a lot of warning signs because again fear, was telling me that I did not want to be alone. He continued to do things that I did not like and I continued to ignore those things because oddly, I still enjoyed his company and conversation. At some point, I realized that talking and dealing with him was draining me and I had to let him go. I offered to still be his friend but this infuriated him and we ended things on very bad terms. 

Amen.

I share this story because it taught me several things. I should not give into temptation just because I am ready to be with someone. I also learned that if someone is not adding positivity to my life that they should be removed immediately. If I am in agony because I am honest with you and you can’t handle it, then we no longer need to be in contact. I am a good person and I am sure that you are too, so don’t let anyone compromise what you stand for. I almost fell headfirst into a bad situation and as the saying goes, “I can do bad all by myself.” Only positive vibes are welcome over here! Next, time I'll listen to God the first time but I never learned a lesson, I did not need. Clearly,lol.

God, I hear you loud and clear.

If you would you like to contribute to the The Attendre Files, please submit your thoughts to ssmarie1920@gmail.com

Always remember you're worth the wait, even if others don't understand the jewels you possess.

 -Attendre

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Attendre, Such a beautiful word. Definition: To wait. A one word command to sit still and wait. I have been waiting for many things in my life. Some things and events have been easy to wait for and others have tested my patience and strength more than I would have wanted. I am waiting and saving myself for marriage. I am waiting to meet my husband. I am saving myself for this man.

In this new millennium many people think that this act of waiting and saving yourself for marriage is cliche, a waste of time, or sexist. I respectfully beg to differ because somewhere and at some specific time in my life, I decided to make this promise to God and myself. It is a promise that I have struggled with lately because of the inability to want to wait for my future husband. To be tempted and feel different emotions and yearnings has been a formidable force against my will to wait.

In this struggle, one thing has been clear. Even though it has been hard, my ultimate goal is to give this gift that I hold to my husband. I have decided to be more proactive in protecting this gift. I want to make sure that I am doing everything that I can to prepare myself for when I find my future mate. I want to continue to work on my spiritual health and get closer to God and to build a support system to help me through this journey of being celibate. Thus, the idea of creating a space where others who are saving themselves or are celibate can share their thoughts and receive encouragement. I asked God to give me guidance and to prepare me for something greater and he placed it on my heart to create The Attendre Files.

The Attendre Files is a place to share laughs, stories, and revelations for many people. I want to share my words and experiences with others and for others to submit theirs as well. I look forward to building a community of support and hope that as you read this, you will decide to contribute in your own unique way.

If you would like to submit anything toward the files, please send them to the following email address:

ssmarie1920@gmail.com

Always remember:

-Attendre